Paranoid

Aysha Lollita

Compositor: Aysha Lollita / Vanya Corson / Mark Lucy

That's the problem
None of them really care
No one knows how much you bleed
I fight my demons every day
But it feels like an endless and losing battle
I feel like an hourglass almost running out
My sanity is at risk
They smile fake but I know worse

Wasting away in a soulless shell
My room is my safe haven
But also my curse
If the world wants to bring me down
I'll bring them all down first
I don't deserve, I don't deserve this shit
I feel like the hill is coming
But I'm running out of time to give up
So I'm gonna let my sanity fall

I've medicated myself again
I feel like I'm slowly killing myself
I I feel like I'm suffocating again
I see I'm about to fall into the abyss
These fucking medications are killing me
I feel like deep down I'm getting paranoid
I'm ready for the massacre
This world is going to bleed and burn
Inside my mind I'm losing again

With every step I feel the power and the hate
I feel like I'm slowly going crazy
But more and more I see that I'm on the edge of madness
People judge you but they don't know what you have to go through to survive
I'm so insane that I gave up on my friends
I don't even want to be around my family
This world is eating away at my pure and kind nature
It makes me see every bad part that exists

That's why I don't deserve this, I don't deserve
To be in this sick game of survival
Crossing the line of perspective
Real life will bring you down
If you It's not strong, but if it doesn't work
Just give in to the madness, and end this shit
Let's take justice for ourselves
No one's gonna save us from this pain

I've medicated myself again
I feel like I'm slowly killing myself
I feel like I'm suffocating myself again
I see I'm about to fall into the abyss
These fucking medications are killing me
I feel like deep down I'm getting paranoid
I'm ready for the slaughter
This world will bleed and burn
Inside my mind I'm losing again

(Again)
(Again)

Sanity is gone, along with happiness
Madness is inside, I'm gonna do it
I'm out of sanity (laugh)
On the edge of the abyss ready for it
I feel like it's the only way to see life
Through this fake scenario they create
Nothing is perfect unless you make it perfect
Yeah I'm insane

I've medicated myself again
I feel like I'm slowly killing myself
I feel like I'm suffocating myself again
I can see I'm about to fall into the abyss
These fucking medications are killing me
I feel like deep down I'm getting paranoid
I'm ready for the slaughter
This world is gonna bleed and burn
Inside my mind I'm losing again

I've medicated myself again
I feel like I'm killing myself again
I trusted this world, now I'm lost
I medicated myself
Now I'm lost
On the edge of insanity
This is how I'm gonna play
Insanely!